Hi 👋 my friends, please 🙏 help! Seeking advice, guidance, your opinion, support, and hopefully some spiritual support, thank you 🙏 ?

Good morning everyone,

Hi 👋 hope all of you are in spirits. I’m seeking some advice, guidance, and support and hoping you can provide me with it. Back in 2016, I was excepted to St. Joseph’s University to obtain my BSN in Nursing. I completed my pre requisite classes and then moved on. After my 1st semester of the nursing program, my Mom (in 2019) had passed away; I met with close faculty members who showed compassion and empathy, and said I needed to take a leave of absence, in which I did. When I was ready to go back, a year and 10 months after my Mom’s death, my Dad (in 2020) passed away. I went back to the program, but, as you can see I was very distraught from losing both my parents back to back. The year before (2018) my Mom died, I was physically assaulted and robbed in the street and that a very traumatic experience for me! I had taken another leave of absence because I was so depressed and overwhelmed; I would talk to a psychologist for a couple of years that did help me along the way. I tried once again at the program, but, I was going through such a hard time of life with all these traumatic experiences I endured, at times I wanted to give up! With that being said, the director of the program showed hardly any empathy (she’s a nurse btw and has said she’s been retiring for years now and a lot of people feel the program is great and could be even better with her gone!) and I went as far as meeting with the executive dean which the 2 are in cahoots together! I explained my situation, and as God is my witness, he said I probably don’t have what it takes to be a Nurse, it’s not easy, etc, he downgraded me and how I cried like a baby, he showed 0 compassion and empathy! I left there distraught, crying and hurting all the way home! I ran into my friend who’s like an Uncle to me, talked to him, he made me believe in myself again and not to give up because God has the final say! So, I voluntarily withdrew from the program, changed my major to GS and that December with 12 credits left, received my BS! Moving forward, I prayed and asked God to please help and show me if nursing is still meant for me; I keep feeling it tugging at my heart and when I look at something, etc, nursing keeps coming up, it can’t be a coincidence, I believe it’s signs from God. I say that because I’ve looked into other fields, and I keep circling back to nursing and I believe that God’s doing and plan for me. I unfortunately cannot do an accelerated program because I have to work to support myself, and I like a traditional program instead. I have applied to several colleges, some are 2 hours away with transportation, I even looked into LIU (I tried it out 5 years ago and it was a very negative experience!) and I would have to take some of my pre requisite classes over because they’re over 5 years old. I now haves looked into Pacific College for Health & Science, it’s completely online, (recorded) no in person classes (which I’m not crazy about!) and would only meet in person if you have a lab for that class (so you have no idea who anyone is a don’t have much of a connection with the professor being the classes are recorded online.) I would also have to take the TEAS exam to pass it to get in, and it’s $80,000 a year! I had settled in with myself that this would have to be the best alternative, but, when I was suppose to begin studying for that TEAS exam, I didn’t feel comfortable, and put it off and again suppose to, it’s just not sitting right with my spirit! When I was completing my BS at SJU, I was in a class with one of the Sisters, which is part of the St. Joseph’s Sisters of Brentwood, LI. They are the original founders of the school, are very impactful to the school, have very high levels of leadership within the school, and have a lot of respect and appreciation…..also have a lot of influence over the school! We became very close, I was involved in a lot of her activities, and she was very supportive to me! I was talking to a friend recently, she told me that I need to listen to my gut and instincts, because they’re tugging at me! She recommended that I reach out to the Sister and meet with her for help and support. She said that I wasn’t dismissed from the program, I willing dropped the program, and earned another degree. She also had looked into the nursing handbook which clearly states that if you fail a class, you have 1 more opportunity to try again; I never had such opportunity because 1. I never failed any classes I had taken in the program and 2. I withdrew before I was deemed a failure! She said that I should of made a complaint against the dean, but, can use that as a stepping stone to get my case back to where it should be. I told her I miss my old school-it’s like a family , the program was good, and from having experience with it already, I know what to expect and how to prepare myself for it! She also said that anyone can apply to a school they received a degree from, I would be applying as a new student and degree. She’s really encouraging me about this, and believes the Sister is the person I need to reach out to and connect with that can possibly help me make it happen. So I ask all of you from reading all of this (sorry about that) what is your honest and sincere advice , opinion, and thoughts? I look forward to hearing from you, thank you! 🙏 😊